i don't think anyone grows up with the desire or ambition to be homeless. something along the way had to go terribly wrong. you may an alcoholic, drug addict, gambler, have mental problems, or you could just be an asshole. in any case, being homeless means noone you know or have known will help you. it means everyone has turned their back on you, are scared of you, don't want the aggravation, or just don't care enough to help. family, friends, business acquaintances, girlfriends, boyfriends, everyone....has turned their back on you for whatever reason. you are indeed alone. that's when the reality hits you and you become abit scared. now i'm not sure i could ever turn my back on anyone in my family who was about to become homeless, but it happens every day....in every state...in most cities. could you turn your back on your son, your daughter, your wife, your husband, your brother, your sister, if they were in jeopardy of becoming homeless and on the streets? i think in some cases i do understand why this happens. they have stolen, lied, hurt, borrowed money they can't or won't repay, and have become in the view of people who know them, strangers they are scared of or are simply disgused with. when that happens and you reach the point where nooone will talk to you....much less help you.....you are the critical point. you can begin right then and there to begin to dig yourself out or you accept it and begin to strategize how you're going to survive the immediated crisis you now have. most opt to strategize how to survive in the short term. it takes awhile for you accept the fact that you are alone and that it is indeed your own fault,,,,yes, it is your own fault. whatever the circumstances are, in the end it is your own fault. but it does still sting the core of your being to know that people you love turned their back on you at the worst point of your life. you now understand what being alone means, what it means to be truly alone, what it means to have noone care about you and what it means to be scared. at first you cling to the hope that something will happen or someone will rescue you. but as the first few days pass and your situation becomes more desperate, you realize that you are truly homeless and better figure something out pretty quick. then it happens....sometimes at night when it's quiet and you're alone....sometimes when you're sitting and thinking in the daytime....sometimes when you realize you're hungry and have had the same clothes on for a few days.....you become one of the homeless ones. frome that point on life becomes a simple matter of survival on a daily basis. you are truly a homeless1
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